Thursday, June 5, 2014

A new start...

For a while now, work has been stressing me out.
I come home exhausted and not very satisfied. 
I have been frustrated and extremely unhappy. 
The feelings started a while back but I decided to ignore them and keep pushing through.
Yet, they would not go away.

I tried not to let on that I was unhappy.
Especially on this blog.
But sometimes, it would just slip.
I felt so guilty because I LOVE the people I work with and the customers that I saw every day.

But then, people started to leave (like these two and my manager).

So... I started to look out for positions.
In all honesty, I have been thinking about this for awhile but did not actively start until 2 months ago.
That is when I started writing work stress blog posts that I was too afraid to post.
But, I saved them and am posting them here for you guys to read about the journey I took.

It was stressful.
Nerve racking.
Down right scary.

have fun reading!

March 12, 2014
(Post from this day)
I did it. I finally went and did something about my work stresses. 

Lately, I have been feeling restless. 



I have been wanting a change. This is not to say that I dislike the people I work with. They are one of the reasons I have stayed this long. I absolutely love them and have created some amazing relationships with them. 

But, I cannot stay in a position that I am unhappy at just because of the people I work with. 

I cannot become complacent and I need a challenge. 

Looking for another position within this HUGE company has been on my mind for months now. The thing is, my company has a 1-year policy for applying for other positions within the company. So, I have had to wait. 

I finally hit my one year mark at the beginning of March. But, when it hit I was scared to do anything about it. I avoided looking at the companies internal job openings. I avoided talking to my superiors. I avoided talking to Colon.

Hell, I still have not talked to him about it. I just can't. 

But, I DID get up the nerve to apply for a position. 

I am nervous, terrified, and shaking as I type this. I don't even think I will post this entry just yet. I want to see what comes of this application.

Nervous and scared,


March 20, 2014
(Post from this day)

I got the response... and it wasn't what I was hoping for. 

Or was it?

I held my breath as I opened the email. Doubt flowing through my mind. Was I ready for change? Am I not in a comfortable position already? Why mess that up?

Well.. I worried for nothing because I didn't get the job. i got the typical, "There were other applicants more qualified than you" response. 

I can't say I am upset or disappointed. I'm just ...


Should I keep applying and looking or give it a break? I only applied to one position... Maybe I'll try again.

Why is it too hard for me to publish these posts?



April 4
I don't want to get my hopes up.
It's almost as if someone with power was reading my thoughts. 
Today I was in luck. 
I literally had someone who worked for corporate in my company and I was lucky to help him. I had no idea he worked for the company and we just started up a conversation. Somehow the conversation turned to further opportunities and career goals. Email addresses and cards were exchanged. 

Now, I am sitting here wondering... should I email? Reach out? 

So confused...

yet so excited and hopeful!

XO Lourdes

Guys. He emailed me. I woke this morning... and there was an email. It too me a few hours to think of a response. I didn't want to sound overeager BUT at the same time I cannot give off disinterest. You know?

I need help... someone guide me!

I am nervous. 

XO Lourdes

April 25
(I talked about it the day before in this post.)

I am trying again. Another application. Work has been getting worse and worse. Yesterday was rough and i don't know how much I can take. So, I have applied for more positions. 

God help me. 

I am nervous. 

XO, Lourdes

May 1, 2014

I got an email. It asked me to set up a time for an interview for the positions that I applied for on the 25th. Oh yeah! Something is happening! Thank God. 

Wish me luck!

Later on that day

And of course, I heard from the other position (from April 4th), too. I have an interview on the 16th of May. God help me. this is the position I want. I was started to get discouraged. Now, I have my hopes up again. 

May 13, 2014 Middle of the night

I cannot sleep. Help. So nervous. My interview screening that I mentioned on the 1st is tomorrow and ...bahhhh! My stomach will not stop flipping and my thoughts won't stop heading to a negative place. Just go to sleep Lourdes. Go to sleep!

May 13, 2014 
(Post from this day)

It went so well! I now am in the second round of interviews and will have my meeting next Thursday. They sent me an email to confirm the meeting and I am overwhelmed. They gave tips and I am so nervous. 

I know I keep using that word- nervous- but that is how I am feeling. Anxious and nervous. 

I also have an interview for a different job this Friday. A position I am more interested in. Hopefully something positive comes of it!

The interview that I set up on the 1st. That one went well also.  am so confused. I have second interview for both positions in the upcoming weeks and I am going to explode with nerves. Why can't they just decide to do informal interviews? I have to do research for both interviews and get my outfits ready for the interrogation...

Sooooo nervous... 

May 21

Preparing for my interview tomorrow. I searched and searched for a jacket for my interview. I have skirts galore in my closet but those pesky jackets. So hard to find one that fits!

I have

-- printed out copies of my resume and prepared questions to ask at the end of the interview. 
-- prepared answers to behavioral questions. 

What else is there for me to do? 

Wish me luck!

May 22

I just came from the interview. I think it went well but you can never tell with interviews!

Fingers crossed

And... I had to end this post by saying...

I got the job!

I was stressing out because it took so long (not really... only a week) to give me the offer.
But I got it and I am so excited!

Now to type up my 2 weeks notice...



  1. Oh no! I can't imagine being unhappy for so long! I'm sorry girly! I'm glad that you are being honest with yourself and taking action to bring back your happiness!
    xo TJ

  2. I'm sorry you were so unhappy! But kudos for taking a step toward change, and a big congrats on getting the new job!!! YAY!


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