Sunday, June 26, 2011

Happiness Continued: June 20- June 26

I cannot wait to hug my boyfriend. I cannot wait to kiss him. The only things that are keeping me going are:
My amazing coworkers
My wonderful friends
The entries on happiness on this list!

Monday June 20
How happy the video game convention made my boyfriend

In previous entries, I have mentioned my boyfriend's obsession with Street Fighter and Marvel vs Capcom. At first, I thought it was a phase and that it would pass, but I have realized that he really does enjoy the game and that he really takes it seriously. To him, it is not just a game. It is a hobby. Once, I realized this, I decided that i would be more supportive. It makes me happy to see him so dedicated to something. So, when he told me about this tournament/ competition/ convention I decided to stand by him and support him. He was so excited about it and would constantly talk about the preparation for it. I am happy to say that he went, and had an amazing time!

P.S. I obviously did not know what to call the "convention"! :)

Tuesday June 21
Soft peppermint puffs

Have you ever had these? They are like peppermints, but they literally dissolve in your mouth! If you have not tried them, you should buy some. Just do not offer me any, because I will eat the whole bag!

Wednesday June 22
Chris getting another interview

Chris, one of my best friends, has had horrible luck with jobs and school. It seems as if everything he applies for turns him down. He has applied to med school and after several interviews, he was not accepted. He has had several job interviews, and has advanced to tertiary interviews only to be let down in the end. So, he has finally gotten another interview and I am extremely excited for him. I am crossing my fingers and praying for him. Can you please do the same?

Thursday June 23
A week until I see my boyfriend

I cannot believe how fast time flew by. I now have exactly one week until I see my amazing boyfriend. I am so excited! I cannot even believe that I am going to see him so soon. All I know is that this week cannot go by fast enough.

Friday June 24
Dinner with Kirsten

I had such an amazing time tonight. I went to The Top to have dinner with Kirsten. It was so yummy and I loved the conversations we had. It was such a delightful night, and the dinner made reminded me (again) of how lucky I am to have such delightful people working with me. 

Saturday June 25
Gummy Bear video

My friend Chris posted this video and it made me laugh so hard. Just watch it. It is hilarious!

Sunday June 26
LaChua Trail with Diego

I have the day off and decided that I was not going to waste it. Thus, I invited my friend Diego to go to LaChua Trail with me. We saw so many cool things. Snakes. Turtles. Birds. AND lots of icky bugs. All in all, It was a great trip with a great friend. 

Take all my anxiousness with you,


Monday, June 20, 2011

Lady of the Dark?


Little kids are scared of darkness. AND so was I. For the longest time. I was afraid that ghosts and monsters would attack me in the dark. 

It's funny how during sex I fear the monsters of the LIGHT. The monsters being insecurity. The light uncovers my imperfections and allows for my fat and uneven tan to be exposed. I have slowly been able to overcome this fear, but I am not where I want to be. 

My goal:

Be able to have sex in a bright room without being insecure


I seem to have relapsing. I take a step forward and 2 steps backward. 

This goal is important to me. NOT just because it'll improve my sex life, but because it'll improve my self-confidence throughout every aspect of my life. 

If you have any ideas on how I can overcome this insecurity, please send me your thoughts!



Sunday, June 19, 2011

Happiness Continued: June 13- June 19

I am just going to jump into this weeks list. I hope you enjoy.

Monday June 13
Working on/ planning bag lunches with Abigail

For the last couple of months, GP events have been lacking. Besides the Friday recess by the pool, we have not had many resident events. We (the leasing staff) noticed this and decided that the residents deserve events. So, Abigail and I started to plan some. The first event that we planned was the resident breakfast that took place two weeks ago. We then decided to plan "bag lunches" for residents. Planning it with Abigail was fun. She is slowly becoming one of my favorite people!

Tuesday June 14
Kirsten's Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIRSTEN! Today is Kirsten's birthday and I am happy to have spent it with her. OK. I know. She had to spend it at work. How fun could that be? 

It honestly was fun. The day was quite relaxed and it was about her. I regret missing her birthday dinner, BUT I am glad that she had a great birthday.

Wednesday June 15
Mr. Monk remembering his birth

I  have laughed so much while watching Monk and I think that is why I love the show. There is a scene where Mr. Monk is meeting with Dr. Kroger. He is afraid of nudity and he starts to recall his own birth. The way that he describes it is hilarious and I could not stop laughing. 

Thursday June 16
Red-velvet/ Cow ant

When I left my apartment today, I saw this red dot moving in the grass. I had never seen anything like it. It looked fuzzy and it was red. It resembled a HUGE ant. I took a picture of it and went on my way. I did not think about it again until I saw it's twin on the way to the model during a tour. That is when I started looking it up and found out the name of the ant. I also found out that it actually is not an ant. It is a wingless wasp. Cool, huh?

Friday June 17
The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo

I love to read and ever since I got  my Kindle I have been reading non-stop. A friend suggested The Millennium series and it took me a couple months to finally start reading them. What was the trigger? Chris suggested we read the books for our book club. I do not regret starting the series. The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo was amazing. It was so engrossing and I cannot wait to start the next book in the series. 

Saturday June 18
Mini post-its

Is it weird that I love mini post-its? I have always liked school supplies. Pens. Pencils. Binders. Notebooks. Composition Notebooks. Post-Its. 
What is better than regular sized Post-its? 
They are just so cute! 

Sunday June 19
My boyfriends Facebook status yesterday

I woke up yesterday and saw the following line on my news feed:

"in two weeks, I'll be up in beautiful Lake Tahoe with the even MORE beautiful Lourdes Echagarruga. Life is good..."

I almost cried when I saw it. He is just so sweet and still knows how to make me feel special. I chose to add this to today's list, rather than yesterday's list, because I just realized how happy it made me. When I checked my Facebook page this morning, I saw the status and it made me happy all over again. What can I say? I have the best boyfriend in the world.  

I hope you enjoyed.

Stay beautiful!


Sunday, June 12, 2011

Happiness Continued: June 6- June 12

Randomness and chaos. That is what my life consists of. I guess that is why my list is so... random and why my life is so much fun! So, here I go... let's jump into the chaos!

Monday  June 6
Mr. Bean's Car

Isn't Mr. bean's car cool? It is so compact and cute. What really intrigues me is the lock. He actually uses a padlock to lock his door. How often do you see that?

Tuesday  June 7

If you know me well, then you know that I am in love with pearls. If you do not know me well, then now you know. they are so elegant and they are sophisticated. I truly believe that every girl should own at LEAST  a string of pearls and a pair of pearl earrings! 

Wednesday  June 8
Finishing the baby blanket for my boyfriend's niece

I have been working hard to finish the baby blanket for my boyfriend's niece. I finally finished it today! All I have to do is add the ribbon! It actually turned out well and I am excited to present it to my boyfriend so he can give it to the family!

Thursday  June 9

I would like to thank my manager, Janet, for introducing me to edamame. It is so yummy and now I am addicted. I love playing with the pod to get the beans out and the bean is such a salty delight! YUMMY! 

Friday  June 10
Drumstick ice cream cones

There are so many reasons why this made my list:
1) I love ice cream. 
2) I love ice cream cones.
3) I love chocolate.

I absolutely love the way the chocolate covers the ice cream. I always eat the chocolate covering and then the ice cream. Once I finish the ice cream I can start to work on the cone. I love how the chocolate lines the cone. It is so delicious!

Saturday June 11
My friend Christopher Flippy

I have written many entries pertaining to this amazing individual, but I never included him on this list. So, this will be that entry. he is an amazing friend and a great person. He is so smart and has always been a fun person to have a conversation with.

Sunday  June 12
Tommy from "Mr. Monk and the Kid"

This episode is heartbreaking. Who would have thought that Mr. monk would come to love a little kid. this episode tugged at my heart strings and made me realize how much I loved Mr. Monk (once again). This episode evokes emotion because I recognize how lonely Mr. Monk is and I know that the relationship and bond he created with Tommy was real. I cried when Mr. Monk made the hard decision to allow Tommy to live with a different foster family  Not only was Tommy important to Mr. Monk, but he was extremely adorable!

That's the end of this entry. I hope you enjoyed!

Much love,

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Not ready for marraige... yet

"Maybe there won't be marriage, maybe there won't be sex, but by god there will be dancing!"

~My Best Friend's Wedding

A few weeks ago I took a trip down to Miami. I was able to spend time with my sister and it was amazing. But the purpose of my trip was to attend the wedding of my boyfriend's friend. the wedding was beautiful and the reception was memorable. Watching this event made me start to think about my own wedding. I know I am not ready for that kind of commitment BUT it doesn't hurt to think about it, right?

So, during the wedding I started contemplating my dress and flowers and venue. I saw things that I didn't want in my wedding and also saw things that I did. 

But I digress from the point of this entry. I am writing because there was a few moments throughout the night that threw me off. The night was amazing and I was happy to spend time with my boyfriend. Throughout the whole night though he kept saying " I won't be the next one" and "It'll be a long time until this happens to me". He even went as far as blocking me from the bouquet toss. I understand where these comments and actions were coming from, but the way in which he said them hurt so much.

 It felt as if he was stabbing me in my heart EVERY TIME he said these things.

 It was as if he was saying it just to hurt me.

I do not know if he intended to do that to me, but that was the effect. I am going to say it again: I know I am not ready for this type of commitment. I expect (and now know, since he so eagerly made it clear) that he is not ready for a commitment. I just did not expect for him to "humiliate" me like this and make me feel so worthless. 

The past few weeks have allowed me to think the situation over and I have been able to reason through the emotions. It still hurts but I am able to get through it by thinking about how well our relationship has been going. It helps to think about how much I love him and how much (I know) he loves me. It helps to think of the happy times and all of the things that we have been through. it helps me to think about the good time we had dancing together that night!

So, I end this entry with the following quote from Moulin Rouge and courage to overcome all obstacles that you meet throughout a relationship:
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return"


Sunday, June 5, 2011

Happiness Continued: May 30- June 5

Life has been so calm lately. Things have been quite repetitive and I have been so happy. Calm before the storm? Maybe it'll be a violent storm of happiness! So, let me urge on the storm.

Monday May 30
My friend is dating

My life has changed a lot since last year. There have been so many new things and one of them is the relationship between two amazing friends. I am so happy that these two are together. More specifically, I am happy for my girlfriend. She is amazing!

Tuesday May 31
The smell of sun screen

I absolutely love the smell of coconut that comes from a bottle of sunscreen. I do not know why it is so comforting, but it is! When i think of the beach, that smell is the first thing that comes to mind!

Wednesday June 1
Kirsten back in the office

The office staff keeps changing. We keep losing people and gaining people. We just got a new manager in the office and it is exciting because I am actually familiar with this "newcomer". She was part of the turn staff when I started at Gainesville Place. She is so sweet and extremely efficient. I know she will be great for Gainesville Place and am happy for her!

Thursday June 2
Ever After

Just breath Just Breath. I have seen this movie so many times that I can recite the words as I am watching it. I remember seeing this movie for the first time in theaters with my sister. I fell in love with it at that moment. I think I cried when I saw it the first time. When it came out on VHS (yes, I said OLD), my mother bought it. My sisters and I would play it all the time. When I came to college, I didn't watch it as often. then, the other day, I discovered it on Netflix. When I realized it was on Instant Watch, I watched it immediately and it still was AWESOME!

PS... I need to find myself a Prince.
PSS... I read Utopia just because it was mentioned in this movie!

Friday June 3
Mr. Bean

 I cannot remember the first time I watched this show, but I do remember how much it made me laugh. That is why I automatically clicked on it when I realized that Netflix had Mr. Bean. He is hilarious!

PS... I want to steal Mr. bean's car!

Saturday June 4

Have you ever seen an episode of this show? If you haven't, then I feel sorry for you. It is hilarious, yet it makes you envy the friendship that this group has. It never fails to incite laughter! SO, If you have not seen it,
WaTcH iT!!!!!!!

Sunday June 5
Booking my trip to visit my boyfriend

I got back from my visit and am missing my boyfriend more than ever. That is why I am so happy to have booked my trip to visit him. I am so excited and cannot wait! I miss his smile. I miss his laugh! and I have a month until I get to her his laugh and see his smile. OH YEAH!!!! EXCITING!!