Thursday, March 31, 2011


"Whenever a taboo is broken, something good happens, something vitalizing. Taboos are after all only hangovers, the product of diseased minds, you might say, of fearsome people who hadn't the courage to live and who under the guise of morality and religion have imposed these things upon us"
~ Henry Miller

Have you ever wondered why certain words and concepts are considered taboo? I have started to notice how many things were considered taboo in my household while growing up. 

My parents were not on equal levels of openness.  My mother acted as if it never happened and was unnatural to take part in it. She was uncomfortable speaking with us about sex or anything sexual. My father was more open about it and was actually willing to talk to us. He was the one that gave my sisters and I the "sex" talk. I remember that day as if it was yesterday. I was 12; My sister was 10; and my other sister was 6. We had just pulled into the driveway and had just come from a day shopping at Dadeland mall. My sisters and I were reaching for the door handle when my father looked back at us and said that he wanted to talk with us. He had the expression that he always had when he had something important to say. That was when he started talking about sex. He basically said that sex wasn't a bad thing, but it was important to take part in it when you were ready and when you loved the person. I laugh in hindsight because I can still hear my mother's interjections and can still picture her expressions as my father was talking. 

But I digress. I tell you about my sex talk experience because I want to show you where I am coming from. Although my father said that sex was not a bad thing and that sex was nothing to be ashamed of, he ended the speech with a (warning) look and a "someone who is not married should not have sex". My mother was worse. She made sex seem as if it was dirty. It was ingrained in our heads that sex (or anything considered sexual) before marriage was dirty. I even remember her telling me that an unmarried girl who engages in any kind of sexual encounters was a slut. 

I used to be extremely uncomfortable with anything sexual. Honestly, I have come a long way, but I still need help. I still need a change. One thing I need to do is get used to verbalizing "penis" and "vagina". You may think this is weird, but I am being honest. I could not say the words out loud. Growing up, we used the Tagalog words for vagina, and penis was not even said often. Now, I can think the words, but verbalizing them is hard. When I do say them, I am either in a class setting (i.e. anatomy, physiology, etc) or I say them so fast, and so low that people have a hard time understanding what I am saying.

I want to change this!!!

Why is it so hard for me to say these words? They are just body parts. They are natural and are, in a sense, beautiful. Thus, I am currently working on saying penis and vagina.

So I end with this video and the words:





Monday, March 28, 2011

Sex anyone?

So, after a lot of thinking, I have decided to add another goal to my 43 Things list. What is the goal, you ask?
Wait for it… Wait for it…
The goal is:
To become more comfortable with sex and my sexuality.
You may think this is a joke. But it is not. I have always had trouble being comfortable with sex. I honestly thought I was until I met my boyfriend. He was the one that made me realize that I was extremely uncomfortable with sex and anything that had to do with it. I mean, I could not even say the words “penis” and “vagina” unless I was in a serious setting (like a doctor’s office, or in a class lecture setting).
I definitely want to change this! The only way that I will get comfortable with sex and sexuality is to immerse myself in it. Sex all day, everyday! Just kidding. What I meant to say was that I need to verbalize more and not be ashamed of it. So, I will start a “SEX” portion of my Blogger blog. It will contain anything about sex and will not be limited to things like “positions”. It will beEVERYTHING. I will post thoughts, ideas, perceptions, experiences (good or bad), quotes, articles, etc. I am sure that this blog will help me and the fact that I will be putting my “sex” thoughts on the internet is a step up.
Hope you enjoy!!!

Sunday, March 27, 2011

365 Days of Happiness March 21- March 27

Let us dance in the sun, wearing wild flowers in our hair... 
 ~Susan Polis Shutz

I love flowers. It's March and all of the flowers are starting to bloom. They are a reminder that spring is around the corner. I am so excited and I will ride on this wave of excitement and continue with my list of happiness. 

Monday March 21

I have seen episodes plenty of times, but it was not until I started dating my boyfriend that I began to appreciate this show. The jokes are so funny, and I love the way my boyfriend laughs when he is watching the show. Maybe that is why I love the show. 

Tuesday March 22
Eat Pray Love

I love this movie. 
1) It has Julia Roberts in it. She is one of my favorite actors and I think she is amazing.
2) The food in the movie makes me so hungry and awakens my need to travel.
3) The movie addresses restlessness; restlessness in life and restlessness in oneself; restlessness in relationships.

I definitely suggest that you watch the movie.

Wednesday March 23
Candice's Pregnancy

My manager recently announced that she was pregnant. What an amazing thing. I am so happy for her and am so excited for her. 

Thursday March 24
Michael's proposal to Holly

You probably already know how much I love The Office. I have seen every  episode and own the first 4 seasons on DVD. Throughout the seasons, Michael has jumped from girl to girl. None of them seemed right for him except for one: Holly Flax. I have cried and have been frustrated with their relationship. This episode has made me so happy. Michael and Holly are engaged. 
This is amazing! 
The one bad thing is that they are moving. This means that this is how Michael Scott will be leaving the show and now a replacement will be coming in.

Friday March 25
Betty and Veronica/ Archie comics

I have been reading Archie comics since I was little. I can still remember buying my first Archie comic. i begged my mother to buy it and she gave in. Ever since then, the weekly trip to the grocery store was something to look forward to. My mom knew that I was hooked and I even offered to trade my weekly snacks from the grocery store for an Archie comic. i do not know why I love them. I just do. maybe it is the complicated relationship among Betty, Archie, and Veronica. Maybe it is the lovable Jughead. I really do not know. I just loved them. 

The one thing I know is that I preferred Betty over Veronica. 

Saturday March 26
Tostitos Creamy Spinach Dip

It may seem weird that I have this on my list of happiness, but I do not care. My boyfriend and I were going through the grocery store trying to choose snacks for the week. We decided to just get chips. So, he chose Ruffles and I chose Tostitos. I decided to try a dip this time. I chose the Creamy Spinach Dip and after the first bite I became hooked. This dip is a "must try".

Sunday March 27
Playstation 3

I cannot believe that I am putting this on my list. It seems quite materialistic. Doesn't it? 

I am putting this on my list because we bought a new PS3 last night and we got to try out the new games that came with the PS3 bundle. It was so much fun!

I guess that I am done with the list today. Try to put a flower in your hair and dance in the sun. Enjoy yourself.  Then go and try the Creamy Spinach Dip with the Tostitos chips and play games on a Playstation 3. I bet you will have fun!



Friday, March 25, 2011

Can men REALLY understand women?

Can men really "understand" women?

This is a question that my boyfriend and I have had thousands of conversations on. Yet, we can never come to a conclusion. My boyfriend tends to believe that he knows exactly what a women is thinking during a given situation. I have to admit that he is quite perceptive and can gauge the thoughts of many women, but he has developed an ego.

I am writing this entry because of a certain conversation that my boyfriend and I had a couple of weeks ago. We were sitting in my car at a stop light having a random conversation and suddenly the conversation turns. My boyfriends seems to think that females tend to go for men that are in relationships. He believes that a woman will not be attracted to a man when he is single, but when he is in a relationship that same women would all of a sudden be attracted to him.

I don't necessarily disagree with him. I do think this is the case, but our reasonings for this phenomena are quite different.

His reasoning:
My boyfriend believes that this phenomena occurs because of some kind of pheromone/ hormone/ chemical reaction. He seems to think that this occurs sub consciously.

My reasoning:
I believe that it occurs because the woman is longing for something that she does not have. Women tend to crave attention and the acts of love from a man. When a man is in a relationship, he is showing that he is capable of giving this attention; he is capable of emotions. A woman picks up on this and sees this. What she really wants is the attention that this man gives to his significant other. She sees that he is capable of this and thus wants it for herself. I do not believe that every woman acts out on purpose. She may not know the reason for the attraction. it's sub conscious. Does this make sense?

I may not be right, but I do want feedback. So I end with this questions:

Why do women go for men in relationships?

Sunday, March 20, 2011

365 Days of Happiness March 14- March 20

I am starting to love wine more as the days go by. I am so glad that my boyfriend took me to vineyards in California and has furthered my experience with wine. So, I sit here with my glass of wine and progress into this week's list of happiness.

Monday March 14
Driving around Miami Beach

I remember driving around Miami beach with my parents and sister when I was younger. I was always in awe of the buildings and the people that were walking around. The people were just so interesting and different. All of the women were just so confident. I think that is why I came to love Miami Beach. I always thought that when I got older, I could go to Miami Beach and that confidence would infuse into my body.

I still have that awe when I go to Miami Beach and am so surprised that I feel no shame when I am there. I absolutely love being in my bathing suit and I am not embarrassed to walk around in just that. This makes me happy. I guess that means that the confidence has infused into my body!

Tuesday March 15

I do not know what it is about Chipotle, but I have fallen hard. I love it and I actually have cravings.

Wednesday March 16
Turtle figurine that my boyfriend's mother gave me

If you have kept tabs on my blog, you know that turtles are my favorite animals. When I was at my boyfriends house, I mistakenly mentioned that I loved the turtle figurines that his mother had. She is so kind and she offered me the turtle figurine. I did not intend for her to give me the figurine. I only wanted to convey that I enjoyed the figurines. I am just extremely happy that i have the figurine! SO CUTE!

Thursday March 17
Mardi Gras masks

I bought 2 Mardi Gras masks when I was in New Orleans. Both were bright and colorful. I think this is why I love them so much. The colors just brighten your mood. I am tempted to find a way to use them as decoration in my apartment so that I could look at them everyday. 

Friday March 18
The Wine and Cheese Gallery

I just want to say thank you to my friends Liz, Chris, and Lauren for showing me this amazing place. They have such a selection of wine and have amazing cheese platters. I love the ambiance of the restaurant. You should definitely go some time. I promise that you will love it.

Saturday March 19
Spring Cleaning

I had the urge to clean out my closet and get rid of  junk. I definitely did that and feel so relieved and slightly de-cluttered. It is a great feeling.

Sunday March 20
Lake Alice/ stroll through campus with my boyfriend

Oh, how i love the walks that I take with my boyfriend. This one was extremely special because we walked around Lake Alice. I was actually able to get close to an alligator and took several pictures. I love the conversations we have during our walks. They make life seem so perfect!

I know I always say this, but I hope you enjoyed this week's list.


Sunday, March 13, 2011

365 Days of Happiness March 7- March 13

A vacation is like love - anticipated with pleasure, experienced with discomfort, and remembered with nostalgia.  
~Author Unknown

Spring break is this week and we are off to New Orleans for Mardi Gras!!!!

Monday March 7
Spring Break

I always love vacations and time off from school. But, this spring break is just amazing. We started driving to New Orleans to go to Mardi Gras and then we will drive down to Miami to visit my boyfriend's family. This will be the first spring break trip that i will take where I will not be going home. 

Tuesday March 8
Mardi Gras

I love the beads and the parades. I love the costumes and the eccentricity. New Orleans is such an exciting city and it makes Mardi Gras so much more amazing. I have bought 2 masks and have caught  many beads. if you have not experienced it, you are missing out. You should definitely make an effort to experience it. 

Now, this motivates me to experience other "Mardi Gras" versions throughout the world.
Wednesday March 9

In my last entry, I mentioned that Phineas and Ferb makes me happy. The song S.I.M.P is a song from this show and is hilarious. S.I.M.P is an acronym for "Squirrels in my Pants". Just watch the video. you will see why I was lured to this show. 

Thursday March 10
Getting my eyebrows threaded

I have always gotten my eyebrows waxed. My eyebrows are so thick and are so hard to control them. I never had a problem with waxing until I got my eyebrows threaded for the first time. I got it done today and am now in love with it. It is so much better for my skin. No more tearing of the skin, and I personally think it hurts less than waxing. It actually feels kind of cool. If you have never done it before, you should definitely try it.
Friday March 11
Audrey Hepburn

This woman is the most beautiful women in the world. She is:

These three words describe what I want to be. I think this is why I have always loved Audrey Hepburn. I love her movies and am so sad that I have never been able to meet her. To make up for this sadness, I watch her movies constantly. Her movies give me a sense of peace. I find myself trying to mimic her mannerisms and cannot contain my happiness when I see her. 

Saturday March 12
Lego Indiana Jones

This Spring Break has shown me how much I love my Lego Indiana Jones DS game. During the drive to and from New Orleans, I have been addicted. Even as I type, I am thinking about the game. Is there a Lego Indiana Jones anonymous?  

Sunday  March 13

One of the best places to get breakfast in New Orleans is The Cafe du Monde. If you have gone, you know that it is necessary to get the beignets. They are amazing. The powdered sugar sprinkled over the French doughnut. YUMMY!

I hope your Spring break was amazing and that you enjoyed this weeks list.


Sunday, March 6, 2011

365 Days of Happiness February 28- March 6

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze
Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

~William Wordsworth, "I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud," 1804

I just love this poem. I guess we can jump into this weeks list...

Monday February 28
Mario cross stitch

A few weeks ago my addiction to cross stitching returned. It all began  when I noticed that the Mario cross stitch that I had started a few months ago was not completed. It is now nearly complete and every time I look at it I cannot suppress my smile. 

Tuesday March 1
How fast time goes by/ It's Already March

Can you believe how fast time is flying by? It seems like yesterday that I started this blog and the 365 entries. I have 2 months left until i can say that I have a years worth of happiness. 
When I was younger, time went by so slowly. I hated it. Now that time is slipping away so quickly, I am  confused. I hate that I am getting older and that there never seems to be enough time to do the things I need to do. Yet, I love the fact that with each day something new comes to light. 

Wednesday  March 2
Incense Sticks

I have always liked incense sticks. When I was younger, my mother would light them all the time. Now that I am older, the scent is quite comforting. It reminds me of home.

Thursday March 3
Phineas and Ferb

BEST SHOW EVER! Yes, I know what you are thinking. I AM 22 years old and I AM watching a Disney Channel show. I do not know what it is about this show. I just love it. The characters are funny; the songs that are sung are amazing; and the jokes are great. 

Friday March 4
My boyfriend getting another internship

You might be surprised that I am happy he got another internship. Although this means that he will be leaving for another 6 months, I am so excited for him. This is great for his future career and looks amazing on his resume. I know he needs this internship for his career and I know that his career is important to him. I am surprisingly calm. I feel no sadness in it. This is what makes me happy. a year ago, I was sad and scared when he got an internship. Now I know we are solid and can spend 6 months apart. 

Thus, this internship truly makes me happy.

Saturday March 5
Skyping with Chris

Skyping with my friend Chris is a highlight of my day. I was so upset when he moved away. No more dates with my best friend. But, now that we Skype once a week, I have something to look forward to. Our relationship has always been weird. We were both quiet people and we both rarely had exciting things happen to them. (At least "exciting" as defined by the average person. We are quite weird.) thus, when we got together, we were actually content with just sitting there and staring at each other. that, to me, is what makes a good friendship. We did not have to speak the whole time that we were together. We always had a comfortable silence; never awkward. Our Skype dates are the same. We have quiet moments, and they are never awkward. I just look forward to seeing one of my best friends. 

Sunday March 6
Completing car repairs

My car has been sick for a while. It needed repairs and I FINALLY go them done. I am just happy that all of the repairs are done. YAY!

I am done with this weeks list. I hope you enjoyed.